Lately I've been feeling preeeeetty sluggish. Call it the winter blues, or just plain laziness; I was struggling to get out of bed and function like a normal human being. That was, up until a few weeks ago. My alarm went off at 6am, when I drug myself out of bed, threw on some comfy clothes, and took a walk around my apartment complex. It's been a week now since I've started doing this. I'm feeling more alive in the morning; I'm getting so much done around the house, for the blog, for Pook's, and I actually feel prepared for work.
I've been having a hard time finding time for myself everyday; just time for me to focus inward. It's hard to practice self love and find a balance when you're always giving to others.
During these early morning walks, I tend to listen to podcasts. One in particular, Heroine, hosted by Mahjo Molfino. It's a podcast that celebrates the achievements and the stories behind successful women in the arts. Every story is completely different but still very relatable. You hear about how these women grew up, where their influences derived from, and how they were able to push through so many hurdles to get to where they are presently. When each episode comes to an end, I find myself feeling energized and ready to start my day.
I think a lot of us tend to forget to put ourselves first. When we become our first priority, when we nurture ourselves, it reflects positively out on the world. Easier said than done though right?
I find it hard to allow myself to be first. I have a deeply rooted desire to please people. And as a baker, that's a huge part of why I do what I do; to feed people, to share, to make them happy. So I think that personally, a lot of the time I spend making sure everyone around me is happy, swallows up time for myself. But at the end of the day, all we really have are ourselves.
We're all at different steps along the way on this journey to self love and self care, but I think something we can all agree on is that we have to show up for ourselves. We have to be the best person we can be for us. And if that means waking up early, baking a little less for other people and more for ourselves, journaling, or going to yoga, then by all means, let's do it.