For whatever reason, whenever I find myself out eating alone, I imagine Carrie at the end of that episode. She ends up resolving the issue, and there's a final shot where she's looking up at the sun during brunch, enjoying food with a book in hand.
I don't watch SATC anymore, but the point being is that we should celebrate having alone time, right? Why are so many of us apprehensive to grab a bite to eat, sit at a table and enjoy our own company? What's holding us back from spending time with ourselves?
Recently, I was delivering some Pook's merch to a local bakery; Dough Mama. I brought in a few drawings and hand dyed towels to sell at the shop (which is now officially the first place beside my booth that I am selling anything - a mini milestone for the business). After I passed off everything to the ladies behind the counter, I ordered a piece of pie, grabbed a cup of coffee and made my way to a table. I forced myself to sit next to the floor to ceiling windows facing the bright sun, and had to make a conscious effort to put my phone down any time I went to surf mindlessly through social media.
In the midst of information overload, it can be so hard to take a step back and focus on ourselves. Spending time alone pushes us to sit with our own thoughts; to learn how to enjoy the small moments that we forget when our phones are at our fingertips.
I tend to find myself around food when I want to be alone. I'll cook something for dinner that takes a little longer than your average weekday meal. I'll cook onions until they're soft and sweet for a pot pie on low heat, or I'll brown beef for a stew simmering in wine. I relish in grabbing a cup of coffee and sitting by a big window, looking at the passer-by's. I enjoy the process, my environment, and most of all, my company. I am working towards becoming more self-aware yet acknowledging everything outside of me.
Whatever it is you catch yourself doing in these small moments, do your best to focus inward. You'll thank yourself later for it.